Rough

Life's trying to kick me down but I won't let it. I will not put myself in a position where I have to sacrifice my dreams. I will achieve my goals. I deserve it. 

Handling the lows

Pretty rough day today. The women I love no longer thinks it's best for us to communicate. So I have to keep working on these dreams, I can't give up on my goals. The only thing I have in life are my goals and dreams. I can't let someone not wanting to be with me destroy my life. I will conquer my emotions and learn to use them to get what I want. I will control my thoughts to bring in things that I want my life to have. I love you. Whoever you are. If you think love is a myth. I'm here to tell you, you're wrong. Find love. Stay open for receiving love. And keep loving till you find a love of your own. 

Free money

Here's a site that I like to use while I'm reaching my goals. It's a nice little side income. Nothing special and it won't get you rich. But if you put enough time into it, it might be able to pay a phone bill. Or buy you a nice dinner. Here's my link http://www.cashcrate.com/5475750

anewpokerstar.blogspot.com

This is my new side project that I'm doing. Showing my progress as a poker player and testing my luck at it. Not stoping until I've reached my go. Also made a twitter if you want to see some of the extra details. @natepaulpoker follow and if you play on any of the sites I do maybe I'll steal some of your chips! anewpokerstar.blogspot.com 

Life and it's ups and downs

I honestly don't think I can ever get mad for someone wanting to be happy. The only thing is that sometimes for someone to be happy, you have to make someone sad. As terrible as that sounds it's bound to happen. Everyone is looking for their own happiness, and sometimes it's you and then other times it's someone else you don't even see coming. I love this girl but honestly she doesn't love me. She did, it came and went. There's nothing left there but pain and being hurt again. But why do I stay? I'm comfortable with being hurt I suppose, I deserve better though. And eventually I will get better, I just need to put my life in the focus where better things can happen. I need better focus on build my internet empire of niche sites that bring me passive income. I need my MMJ project to work out and bring me peace and happiness at all times. I just know if I stay positive and working on my goals, and never give up until I've done what I need to do. I'll have that house on the lake, and that corvette, and three successful businesses. I just have to keep the faith.

So called friends

I find it funny. I have one good friend who in reality isn't a good friend. Only comes around when he wants too, and only when I have something to offer. Maybe I need to distance myself to let them know that things aren't what they used to be. I stand up for myself, I have my own dreams and goals. That I will not accept anything less than I deserve. I don't deserve to have a friend who doesn't respond to text messages. I'm trying to make millions,I can't do that with someone who has issues with communications. I'm good on that, I've tried and tried to make things work out, make amazingly crafted business plans. Only to have to goto the side because of, instead of talking about business my friend wants to talk about his countless relationship problems. Only the universe knows where we would be if my friend just overcame their need for a female at this moment. I can't depend on him when it comes to up holding a idea. As ruthless as it sounds I'll take all of his ideas and use it for myself. I'll be sure to let him know that I do it too. But the other side of the coin I can't do that. I'm too good of a person, but I will not let my kindness be taken advantage of.

How quick dreams can turn into realities

It can happen in a blink of a eye, you can have everything you've dreamed of in a instant. Your brain can't tell the difference between dreams and reality anyways. If you hold that intention of that dream. And never lose sight of that emotion, and passion it brings to you, there is no reason why it can't happen. The more you want it and the more action you take towards it the quicker it comes. It sounds simple but you have to be able to weather the storm. You have to deal with certain people removing themselves from your dream, you have to deal with people throwing stones at your dream. But at the end of the day if you believe in your dream nothing can stop you. It's not going to be easy, it shouldn't be. You don't want anything to be easy, you want to work for it because it'll feel that much better when you finally get it! Life is beautiful when you find out anything is possible. 

I want this, not knowing what trouble it might bring but the goals I can complete once I get it.