Rough

Life's trying to kick me down but I won't let it. I will not put myself in a position where I have to sacrifice my dreams. I will achieve my goals. I deserve it. 

Handling the lows

Pretty rough day today. The women I love no longer thinks it's best for us to communicate. So I have to keep working on these dreams, I can't give up on my goals. The only thing I have in life are my goals and dreams. I can't let someone not wanting to be with me destroy my life. I will conquer my emotions and learn to use them to get what I want. I will control my thoughts to bring in things that I want my life to have. I love you. Whoever you are. If you think love is a myth. I'm here to tell you, you're wrong. Find love. Stay open for receiving love. And keep loving till you find a love of your own. 

Free money

Here's a site that I like to use while I'm reaching my goals. It's a nice little side income. Nothing special and it won't get you rich. But if you put enough time into it, it might be able to pay a phone bill. Or buy you a nice dinner. Here's my link http://www.cashcrate.com/5475750

anewpokerstar.blogspot.com

This is my new side project that I'm doing. Showing my progress as a poker player and testing my luck at it. Not stoping until I've reached my go. Also made a twitter if you want to see some of the extra details. @natepaulpoker follow and if you play on any of the sites I do maybe I'll steal some of your chips! anewpokerstar.blogspot.com 

Life and it's ups and downs

I honestly don't think I can ever get mad for someone wanting to be happy. The only thing is that sometimes for someone to be happy, you have to make someone sad. As terrible as that sounds it's bound to happen. Everyone is looking for their own happiness, and sometimes it's you and then other times it's someone else you don't even see coming. I love this girl but honestly she doesn't love me. She did, it came and went. There's nothing left there but pain and being hurt again. But why do I stay? I'm comfortable with being hurt I suppose, I deserve better though. And eventually I will get better, I just need to put my life in the focus where better things can happen. I need better focus on build my internet empire of niche sites that bring me passive income. I need my MMJ project to work out and bring me peace and happiness at all times. I just know if I stay positive and working on my goals, and never give up until I've done what I need to do. I'll have that house on the lake, and that corvette, and three successful businesses. I just have to keep the faith.

So called friends

I find it funny. I have one good friend who in reality isn't a good friend. Only comes around when he wants too, and only when I have something to offer. Maybe I need to distance myself to let them know that things aren't what they used to be. I stand up for myself, I have my own dreams and goals. That I will not accept anything less than I deserve. I don't deserve to have a friend who doesn't respond to text messages. I'm trying to make millions,I can't do that with someone who has issues with communications. I'm good on that, I've tried and tried to make things work out, make amazingly crafted business plans. Only to have to goto the side because of, instead of talking about business my friend wants to talk about his countless relationship problems. Only the universe knows where we would be if my friend just overcame their need for a female at this moment. I can't depend on him when it comes to up holding a idea. As ruthless as it sounds I'll take all of his ideas and use it for myself. I'll be sure to let him know that I do it too. But the other side of the coin I can't do that. I'm too good of a person, but I will not let my kindness be taken advantage of.

How quick dreams can turn into realities

It can happen in a blink of a eye, you can have everything you've dreamed of in a instant. Your brain can't tell the difference between dreams and reality anyways. If you hold that intention of that dream. And never lose sight of that emotion, and passion it brings to you, there is no reason why it can't happen. The more you want it and the more action you take towards it the quicker it comes. It sounds simple but you have to be able to weather the storm. You have to deal with certain people removing themselves from your dream, you have to deal with people throwing stones at your dream. But at the end of the day if you believe in your dream nothing can stop you. It's not going to be easy, it shouldn't be. You don't want anything to be easy, you want to work for it because it'll feel that much better when you finally get it! Life is beautiful when you find out anything is possible. 

I want this, not knowing what trouble it might bring but the goals I can complete once I get it. 

Waking thoughts

Life is a beautiful thing, no matter how you look at it. I've been thru the highest highs, and the deepest of holes. Life is all about how you handle the everyday ups and downs. I think I finally got a grasp on my emotions. The one thing I consistently say to my self is that; the only thing you have control over is your emotions. I know that once I fully master that, life will be exactly what I choose it to be. I used to struggle with depression and thoughts of my world being completely ruined and worthless. Now everyday I wake up and realize; I will reach to that point where I'm achieving my goals that I've set. Since I got the bigger goals established it's time for the smaller goals that'll lead up to that promise land. As you guys know I want three successful businesses. Medical Cannabis Caregiver, Car buying and selling/ restoration, and building these niche sites/ selling professional websites. I need to build small goals that'll lead me to those paths. Job 1 keep learning as much as I can, and start making the right connections. Job 2 start saving whatever you can from where ever/ learn as much as possible. Now Job 3 is going to take up most of the time, only because this is the main option of cash coming in soon. First thing I can do is learn, make mistakes, learn from them and the profit from it. 

  All you have to do is take ACTION  And all of your dreams will come true

If I keep chipping away the best I can I will be successful in no time. 

Material things

Why do I feel the need to have these wants, of things that will just be useless once I die? I guess they are symbols of wealth, success, and worthiness. Once I get my first successful business up and running I'm going to purchase a house on a lake. Second business I'll buy a rose gold Rolex. Third business, I'm stumped after the house on the lake and the watch not sure what else I'd want. I'd have the corvette and the ford f-150 already so I'd guess you could say my goals for that part of my life would be reached. Maybe I don't understand how hard three successful business will be to control. But I'm not worried about "the how". Just focused on the end and preparing the best I can. I'm so thankful things are the way they are. In this very moment right now I am as happy as I possible can be. I love life and the way it's shaping out to be. I know in a matter of time I'll be waking up with endless amount of medical cannabis, with a house on a lake two amazing cars and three successful businesses. 

    You can do anything you want  You can dream whatever you want

Future Life

Why do I want this corvette so bad? Because it screams look at me I'm young ,black and have a sports car? Or is it because I fell in love with corvettes when I was little because my father owned one? Who knows all I know is that I truly want one if. And if I want/desire it bad enough it'll happen. Right now I am working on setting up a passive income something that'll bring in some money. I have two streams right now. One is more extreme and requires a fair amount of connections, the other is very simple but takes up time and is some what tedious. If I can master it, I'll have that corvette in no time. 

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Introduction

      I suppose this is where I write a lengthy essay about who I am and what I do and what I'm in love with. But to be honest I'd have to know those answers. I know very little about myself and about ten times the amount about others. For example I can tell you anything about Kobe Bryant but I can't tell you the slightest about myself. Besides from the basics, I don't know about myself at all or I should say very well. But recently I've been learning. I love to love, when I have a goal there is nothing that can stop me, extremely hard worker, and hates to be hurt by others that he loves. I know I want to own three successful businesses, one being a medical marijuana caregiver and expanding on that idea even more. Another is I want to flip cars, and or restore them too. And the third is a toss up, a friend and I tried to setup a sneaker reselling business that failed horribly, so me and him would go in on a storefront and I would be at the storefront every day. Those are my current goals. I wouldn't say they aren't attainable at all I just have to sit down and carefully plan them out. As we know money makes everything work but honestly if I sit down and show people these plans why wouldn't they want to be apart of it. Well lets get to the reasoning that I am making this blog. Its another goal, for me to write one blog post a day at least, and for the days where I have nothing to do I can post as much as I want. But once I pass the one entry, mark I have to make sure every entry is at the least 500 words. What will I be posting? Absolutely anything and everything, its sort of a life blog of whats going on right now, what I see future self doing. That's the real subject matter some entries will be from me in the future detailing what I'm doing in a day to day life by using pictures and of course words. So that's it! Hope you enjoy whats to come

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